I HATE the quote "It is not the number of breaths you take, but the moments that take your breath away

Obviously who ever came up with that, never knew anyone who died young.

It seems like such a long time since this pic was taken. However seems like just yesterday that I got the call of the horrible news. It was 3 years ago. Now my sissy is gone, Jade is a Beautiful young woman, Brennan such a busy man on campus. My Brother in Law, Kit has found a wonderful wife named Jamie. I am very happy for him. I also now have a new neice named Hannah, she is beeeeautiful like my Jader bug.

Death sucks in any situation. When dad died--well he smoked 3 packs a day and died of lung cancer at 58. To young and it was horrible, I miss him every day. At least it made some sort of sense. Tami, dying so suddenly is just so hard to deal with. I think about her many times a day. Every time I say my daughter's name, I think of my sissy. For a short time I almost regreted naming her "Tami" because it hurt to say her name. I am much better with it now, especially when I see some of my sister's wonderful traits in her. Of course Tami loved everything about nature. Spring flowers, trees, animals, and fall leaves were at the top of her list. So all of these things remind me of her.

I will say that her death put alot of things into motion. When she passed, I had a "meaning of life" moment and decided that I wanted kids. As a matter of fact during the funeral, I looked over at my niece and nephew as they cried and I decided that I wanted children as sweet as them. Wow-- then I had my twins (boy and girl). Having twins day care was gonna be like $1,000 a month, so I am a stay at home mom.

I know that my sissy guides me as a mom. I swear I hear her exact words come out of my mouth. She was a wonderful mother. Being a mother was her life and I wish she had been able to be a grandmother and of course and Aunt to my babies.

There is no need for sympathy, just a greater appreciation for each other. Life is too short to worry about keeping the house clean, worring about what the neighbors think, or having a fancy car. Are you above ground??? Then it is a good day!!!!